I realized today I’m one of the people who can feel something for that moment when it happens but am quick to let it go when it comes to deeper feelings. I don’t savior it enough because I know I can’t have it. If I can’t have it, why savior it, why have a solid memory of what I can’t have? So I just let it pass.

This tendency has run into other feelings, moments of elation. I don’t stop to appreciate it, examine it, relish it. They are all just moments to me, for any feeling, very fragmented. I’ve been afraid to feel for what it will do to me, because I’m already very familiar with what they have the capability to do to a person. But without feeling, what will drive you? Maybe that’s why I’ve been so stagnant. I mean I have a plan for where I’d like to go and I’m getting my degree, but I’m not going after it the way people who are ambitious do. I’m not throwing my heart out there, but playing it in the backseat and getting by. I don’t feel determined at all. Or passionate enough. No raw feeling. That’s what’s missing in me. I’ve just settled for consistency and contentment. But is that ever really enough? When I know I’m capable of more than that?   

I know you just want to close up. It’s much easier to hold it inside than try to describe it and feel the pain a million times more than you already do. Bitter and cold is how it has left you. But as you cut out the world more and more, you feel the prick of loneliness cut into your skin more deeply. And maybe at some point, when hurt is all you feel, maybe you’ll realize what you need is exactly what you thought you didn’t – company and the comfort that stems from it.

—A boy with hope… (via aboywithhope)

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Dawson’s Creek (via runawaytrain)

That’s what Y. Kim said too - Just be patient, and it’ll come to you…

—~ John Mayer (via anditslove) (via littleredone) (via gatekeeper)

—Martin Luther King Jr.

—Samantha Who (via raindropsonredroses) (via feedmyfetish)

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